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What to do when everything’s fucked

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What’s something you say you’ll do, but never get around to it?

I’ve always wanted to try to make vegetarian bacon at home but never got around to it until recently.

It was… okay.

I’ve been saying I’ll relearn French but never got around to it until 2 months ago. Then, life happened and I had to pause my French lessons, but that’s not the point.

I’ve been saying “I’ll return to this topic” in quite a few articles, but never got around to it.

There’s a pattern with the topics I cover and the questions I explore, but I haven’t ever fully returned to a subject to write another article on it.

Until now.

Going through my Notes app, something stood out to me from the file where I keep all my article ideas. I’d written something about Stoicism.

Granted, I just wrote about Stoicism 3 weeks ago.

But like I mentioned–and some of you found this as amusing as I did–I wrote the article at 3:17 AM.

After reading my note, I realized I’d forgotten to include in the article the thing that made me write it in the first place.

It was a conversation with an old friend.

My friend and I were talking about what we’d been up to since we last saw each other.

Then, the conversation–as it often does with Albanian friends–steered to Albania and our peculiarities.

Albanians have a lot of opinions about Albania and Albanians.

Like I said in The 3 Horsemen of the Choice Apocalypse, some people truly abuse their god-given right (evolution-given right, if that’s what you want) to tear apart at other’s life choices.

These people can be divided into 3 groups:

  • Devil’s advocates: If you tell them something, they will, without doubt, dig deep into their consciousness to find something that discredits what you just said.
  • Special snowflakes: Special snowflakes’ only hope at making an impression is faking one. From food to movies, to fashion, to random conversation topics, they will say things just to…say things. 
  • Lazy thinkers: They have a somewhat solid foundation of ideas they rely on, they’ve usually held those beliefs for years. Lazy thinkers have a weak set of arguments, though, especially if you dare to as much as stray a bit from the conversations they’re used to having.

You can read more about their traits and how to handle what I call the 3 horsemen of the choice apocalypse (lol, I love this title) on the article I linked above.

In the meantime, let’s focus on devil’s advocates. When it comes to Albania, I’m like the opposite of a devil’s advocate. An angel’s advocate, if you will.

I think that a lot of what people consider Albanian-specific problems are actually global.

If I hear someone complaining about something “that only happens in Albania,” I try to respectfully provide examples of times the same thing has happened to people in other countries.

I don’t consider myself a nationalist, but I like to give credit where credit is due. I appreciate everything that goes right in Albania. A lot does. When things go wrong, I consider whether what went wrong is “common” in other countries or not.

My friend wasn’t having it, though.

She started complaining about the healthcare system here.

I respectfully told her about the American health system.

She debunked my statement.

I made the argument that the story she shared wasn’t representative of Albanian healthcare.

She debunked my statement, sharing more examples of things that had gone terribly wrong.

This continued the same way with her problems with the educational system here and the legal system. My final attempt was to finish on a positive note with something I was sure we’d agree on.


Albanian food is great, right? At least we have that going on for us?

Well, I was wrong again. She knew someone who worked at the FDA Albanian equivalent and, apparently, our food is literal poison.

I was defeated. I’m rarely at a loss for words, but this time I was.

I had nothing to say.

Until now.

Everything’s fucked- What now?

What do we do when everything’s fucked? What should I have said to my friend who was so painfully right and understandably angry at the system?

You might’ve guessed it: Stoicism.

Well, no, I shouldn’t have just mouthed the word “Stoicism,” my friend wouldn’t want to hang out with me again.

Unless she’d seen Pitch Perfect and knew that mouthing words is the pinnacle of humor and she’d want to be best friends… I digress, I digress.

The main premise of Stoicism is that the only thing we need to get good at is differentiating between things within our control and things out of our control and learn to put all of our energy into the former.

But maybe being immune to misfortune is more about the way we react to misfortune rather than about never encountering misfortune.

Think about it. 

Can you imagine how much energy we’d save if we only focused on what’s under our control? 

But it’s not just about energy or productivity, but about our feelings and inner turmoil as well.

Can you imagine how much calmer and happier we’d be if we focused on what we can change?

I was wrong, so now I’m writing about Stoicism at 3:17 AM

My friend was right. She wasn’t lying or exaggerating. The stories she shared were things that had happened to her or her family members. They were important and definitely needed further investigation from the right instances.

But all she could do was… do what she could.

I don’t want to sound condescending by writing down a list of what she could do to affect the healthcare/legal/educational system.

It’s harmful to focus on individual effort when we should be focusing on the institutions that are paid to get these things right and still don’t.

But again, Stoic teachings tell us to focus on what we can control and give those things our 100%. We can’t control those institutions.

We can control how we react when a nurse asks for a bribe or when a teacher says something mean about another child or when we witness injustice. Our vote matters. Our petition signatures and our protest turnout matter.

In this case, we control to some extent where we live. Living in Albania does make some people terribly unhappy, just like living in England makes some people terribly unhappy. If these people want to achieve long-term happiness, well, they need to focus on finding a job in another country.

I’m a rational optimist, so I don’t think everything’s fucked here, or anywhere for that matter. But for the days when it’ll feel like the world is ending, I’ll know what to do.

6 thoughts on “What to do when everything’s fucked”

  1. Quietly and in a matter of fact way you say. ” Is that so”? And for the rest of that conversation your do the 80/20 thing. 80% listening and 20% talking. Way less frustration and headache trying to prove a deep subject point with a friend. And…..Smile in your mind and think this will be a great discussion on the inner dolphin!

    Haha! Something tells me you are thinking….Duhh!! In the most respectful way to one of your tribe.

    I have to say as soon as I saw this title I was so yes! I cant wait to read this!!
    Thank you for another intelligent article.

    1. I’m rarely frustrated with friends, or strangers for that matter. I don’t think that I try to prove points or ever think “This will be a great topic for The Inner Dolphin” as I’m discussing something. But I’m always open and interested to hear what readers take away from what I write, so I appreciate you sharing your thoughts. I’m glad you found the title so intriguing. Thanks for reading.

  2. I used to be a very indifferent type of person when it came to talking about the issues on our lovely land. I saw no point in discussing them or trying to change my or others’ opinions.
    Fortunately, that attitude is in the past.

    Although I consider myself a pessimist(not on similar topics to this, but in general), I now advocate passionately on essential matters. Is it because I am now far away from them physically? Is it because my loved ones still live with them daily? Is it because I somehow am more sensitive to them and can notice what is of importance? I have no idea.

    But what I truly am aware of is that how desperate, sad, painful, and (I am sorry for this) pathetic the attitude of your friend is. And I used to be the same.

    Yes, our citizens have some real issues. They have never been truly taken care of by the people in power. They can only think of themselves first, because of their desperate and essential needs. And it is understandable. Yes, there are always some dark shadows trying to devour what’s still kind out there. And what a challenge is to withstand them!

    I believe it is a matter of ethics, education, and empathy. Slowly but surely, we have to become aware that we have to take care of each other. And by doing so, we take care of ourselves and our families. (Ironically, this is almost the same situation with the pandemic and the vaccination “dilemma”. )
    This, however, is definitely a process and it needs a lot of time to notice changes.
    For instance, the healthcare system of any country does have issues and many people complain. But they do not even begin to compare with the essential non-existent services lacking in our country our similar ones to us. Should this make us more desperate than we already are? Sure it can, and probably will for a LONG time. But just as you said, we should do what is within our grasp of control, be that in the form of emotional or other types of responses.

    It is absolutely necessary to talk about those bad experiences and shed some light on the issues that made them happen. And hell yes, sometimes is necessary to scream them out.
    But the individual effort should be in the form of collectivity in order to be effective and not an exhausting desperate failed attempt. Because if it will be something other than that, we will only end up having the adjectives of that attempt and that LONG time.

    Maybe I got lost in there somewhere in the midst of this reaction and I apologize for sounding so harsh at some point, but damn this wears me out!

    Anyway, I felt like sharing this one and I do not even know if it is an apt attitude on how things work, but it surely is better than just complaining.

    1. This comment was an art piece on its own. Maybe selfishly, I hope people who find themselves in the first 2 sentences you’ve written will continue reading. I strongly believe it’ll spark in them the desire to fight against those dark shadows trying to devour what’s still kind. Thank you for sharing this.

  3. Do you see yourself living in Albania permanently?

    I find myself always debating with my boyfriend about this.
    I am not sure what’s worst- always living in Albania or never trying the experience of living somewhere else.

    1. I don’t see myself always living here, no. When I was younger, I used to think much more strongly about NOT living here. But there’s this song West Coast from The Neighborhood that I find pretty reflective of my situation: “They say it’s happy here/ Happiness is figurative/ I’m happy cuz of me/ Doesn’t matter where I’m living.” Once I realized that no place would make me that much happier or sadder, I didn’t see living in a specific place as “the worst” or “the best”.

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